BUT! I have exciting news. I don't even know who reads this, but I have to share my unending excitement (well, unending until April 24, when inevitably it will end).
I'm an ABNA quarter-finalist! O_O
There's a link and everything. It's....wow. Just wow.
See, LJ, I've been struggling with Duality for a while. I've edited and rewritten and rethought and refocused so many times I've gotten to where I can't even look at the manuscript anymore. I'd given significant thought to shelving it and working solely on getting Spark query-ready. A small part of me couldn't let Dima's story languish in the ether, but I wasn't getting so much as a nibble. Form reject after form reject after form reject.
So when an author friend sent my query to her agent, I expected nothing, especially since I'd queried that agent a year prior and got a nice, prompt form rejection. What happened? She sent me back some suggestions for revisions and offered to look again if I revised.
Last month, I got a partial request from a contest. Still waiting to hear back, but it was more than I'd gotten before.
And now, Duality is in the quarter-finals of a contest with a largely science fiction-leaning panel. A contest I entered on a whim.
Maybe this is a lesson in perseverance. Maybe this is sheer luck. I don't know. What I do know is that I'm closer than I've ever been, and it's both amazing and scary. I doubt I'll make it to the semi-finals. But I doubted that I'd make it to the quarters. I doubted I'd get anywhere at all.
I guess the point is that you should exhaust every possible route before deciding that enough's enough. You owe it to yourself to follow your dreams. Life's entirely too short not to go after what you want.